i was wondering..

dat nite aft choir concert..
Catherine told me something when i was standing there waiting for role call...
she said: 'u look better without ur glasses and when u smile more.'
i was like: huh??really?!!

hmm...off wiv my glasses huh..
dat wld be a good suggestion,but i dun think it'll happen in a few years time..
smile more..
hmmmmmm...
m i dat sad looking or fierce or whatever dat was in her mind dat time??


knw wat..
maybe i really shld take her suggestion seriously..
shld i??

Sometimes..
u don't need a huge thing to make u happy..

try to string all the little things up..
it will end up like a big smiley puzzle dat can make u smile too~~ ^^
and maybe it might do more than just a smile..
maybe a big picture that can make u laugh?
or even a whole scene that gives u a warm feeling?

Happiness is uncountable and cant be measured..
Cherish all the happy moments u have,
n u'll end up having the biggest happiness..
^_^

A question for myself

Did I really gained weight lately?
y r thr ppl constantly telling me dat i grew fatter edi?

1st,it was my mum who sudd pops out n say..
i have a 'tummy' (in canto,tou lam)
i was like..huh??!!
how did dat happened?

then 2day in uni..
my coursemate/senior whom i actually knw her b4 i came to uni during form 4 note dat i grew 'meaty' on my arms..
HUH???!!!

later on..
my another coursemate/senior oso mention dat i have 'tummy' edi..
n asked me how did i gained weight..
HHHUUUHHHH??!!!


how did this happened?
i seriously have no idea..

why why why??

is this suppose to be sth good or bad?
i dunno..

Special news of Karen Lui !!! XD

hey guys...listen up!!
karen knws how 2use facebook alr!!!!
isnt dat amazing 4her 2actually explore fb?
she learnt 2use d chat n started playing wiv games like pet society n restaurant city..
she told me she spent like 2 hrs straight jz by exploring around fb..

i found it funny coz she was d one who say..
'facebook knws who m i,but i dunno it'
now she started playing n say its fun..

currently she's still exploring pet society n restaurant city..
she's having trouble abt d taggings in notes n statuses updates..
guys,shld v giv her a hand 4her 'big' achievement??!! XP

keep up d good work,'lousy' karen!!!
but pls dun get stuck n 4got abt practicing..
^_^

A week of Red Bean Tong Sui

yes,yvonne dear..
u do knw abt tis alr..
(no nd to 'surprisingly,she din tell me' lar..i told u in msn jz now.. XD)

tis week itself,
i drank 3 kinds of red bean tong sui alr..
2 on mon,1 on 2day..

1st one was karen's..
she stayed up till 2am to boil tis so dat d nx morning she hav sth 4breakfast..
when i 1st reach her place in d aftnoon,
d 1st thing she do was get in2 d kitchen 2heat up d tong sui,
coz she say mz let me try.. XD
honestly,i oni drank a few scoops coz i was full fr my cheesy spagetti lunch..
it was quite nice..not too sweet..
well..sweeter than d ones dat i usu drink at home,
coz my family arent a fan of sweet stuff..
but kinda watery..

2nd one was jie ying's..
aft i left karen's place in d evening,i went over 2hueyuen's place 2study 4history wiv d rest..
when jieying came aft i've reached,
she took a bowl of her red bean tong sui out n ask yvonne n i 2try..
i drank ard 60-70% of d bowl coz yvonne said she was full.
jieying's was sweeter n thicker than karen's coz she put in more sugar n uses a slow cooker 2boil it.
so d texture is thicker n 'gluey'..
n she added extras..
which is sago..
very nice!!!

laz but not least..
d one i drank at home 2day..
my maid boiled it..
d sweetness is as usual in d house..(meaning not sweet lar)
texture similar 2karen's coz both oso use normal pot n boil in stove..
but not as watery as karen's coz longer duration..
karen oni took 4 hrs,i think my maid took 5 hrs ++

as a conclusion..
i like jieying's..
not bcoz of d sago or d sweetness..(yes,i admit dat i hv sum kind of sweet tooth on certain food)
but coz i like d 'gluey' n thick texture dat was cause by d slow cooking of d slow cooker(DUH~~!)
for sweetness wise,
i prefer karen's..
not too sweet or too plain 4me..^^


hopefully i wldnt come across another bowl of red bean tong sui within d nx coming wk..
but i think i wanna go try red bean ice cream if i get 2see it when i go 4movies wiv my dear darling tmr..
^_^

American Idol 09

yeah rite..i knw..it's a very very hot topic now..
im not going into details..
but i jz dun understand y..
y is Kris ???
i want Adam to win!!!

well..still..
i guess..
even if Adam didnt win..
he'll still sumhow get a contract..^^


p/s: all above r personal perspective,no hard feelings ya..

I'm amazed.. XD

finally..
daddy joined in d fun..
he is now in FB!!! XD
now my whole family(minus my bro,coz he's too young) is in d FB network..
i cant belif dat tis day actually happened..haha..

at least now...
both my parents arent dat blur on internet stuff..XP
my mummy did my quizzes,but oni scored on d 3rd one..
daddy can upload his photos asap n let us view,
rather than having to wait until he returns..
(awesome work,daddy... ^_^)
n they r so updated wiv their daugthers' status,
dat sumtimes i dun dare to put in too many things.. XP

i shall now wait n c how my parents utilize FB to d max of their 'capability'
XD

gettin lost and feeling helpless again..
tis time no one can help at all...
i have to do it by myself..

praying hard for the will power and wisdom,
so dat i can handle it in a proper way dat wldnt cause anything to anyone..



p/s: - gonna spend time wiv my dear again tis thurs,yay!!!
- going to a sleepover camp wiv my 'darl leng' tis weekend,cant wait!!

hopefully these 2 events will help me to cope wiv my issues.. ^^

y so many ppl go singapore during d break???
I WANNA GO SINGAPORE!!!
to visit my lovely cousins and my sweetie pies!!!!
i miss them SO MUCH!!!

update of current status XD

i think most of my blog readers knw dat..
im currently 'wounded'
im staying at home rotting..
coz i cant rili drive or play piano..
but still..it din stop me fr having some changes...

i got my new glasses few days b4 d semester ends..
(btw,in my calendar,d laz day of tis sem is d MBE concert)
but i did not wear it to uni coz i had trouble adapting to it..
i felt dizzy when i put it on at 1st,
so..i did not wear it during finals..

secondly..
i got a haircut 2day or shld i say ystrday..(mind u,it's alr 1am.. LOL)
ching,i rili din mean to be a copycat..
i hav no idea dat my definition of 'shorter fringe' towards d hairdresser means like tis..
it's not d same as urs..but fr far..it looks kinda similar..
well...anywayz...
im satisfied wiv d haircut coz d weather is devastating coz my thick hair is bothering me too much...
i felt so light aft having d haircut..
but at d same time..
it makes me feel childish coz of d fringe..
when i hav short fringe,my parents n my siblings will hav diff opinions..
my parents wld say i looked younger n sweeter
(ewwww...it's a compliment,but i think d word 'sweet' doesnt suit me)
my siblings wld say i looked childish..
weird family huh..

hmm...
i think dat's all d crap dat i wanna share...
sorry for being perasan..XD
btw,Yvonne!!!
i found sth very cool!!
i like tis emo look!!
check tis out: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1594937865#/photo.php?pid=2092462&id=39037210652


i think i shld post a photo of my current look,
pls bear wiv it..
sorry!

updating again very soon.. ^^

i had a stay over in karyan's place last nite coz i nd to do my assignments..
(ching came over to slp as well)
went to uni during d day,
did sth dat made yvonne,ching n david got a shock... XD
n spent d aftnoon in karen's place..

a lot of hilarious things happened..
had a few girl talks...(gossiping is included of course XD)
a few minor accidents... XD
i heart my time spent in angkasa these 2 days...

will update soon enuff when im done wiv all d exams n assignments within d week..
praying rili hard dat i can settle all of them on time..



Hwei,
im enjoying tis sem oni by d end of d sem,
pathetic huh..
but dun worry..
i had enuff of breakdowns..
now im taking things easily..
trying not to push myself to d limit..
so..
u oso enjoy ur internship in d hospital!!(i can tell dat u r having fun ^^)

Random (yes..again)

cant belif dat she still hav d energy and semangat to blog now..XD
betul betul beh tahan her lar...hahaha
not much to say coz my mind is kinda blank now..

finished my improv recording... *clap clap*
coz for a kepoh person to finish d recording in a room dat includes 2 other girls chit chatting is a very hard task to complete.. LOL

now writing out chords for my song writing final project..
nd to transpose d key coz i cant reach too high...
yeah..i knw i shldnt be singing..
but i cant find a suitable singer in such a short period of time..
so...alang alang lar..
or like wat yvonne say..lantak aje ler...
cant be bothered!
cant wait for d wk 2 end...
it's jz so hectic n suffocating!!!!!!!!!!
AARRRGGGHHHH

For all my fellow mates who r having jury tis wk onwards,
GOOD LUCK!!!

I can call it A day... XD

2day's band class was so fun!!!!!
tis is d 2nd time i've found band class amusing!!! XD
n it was so much better than d previous time!!!!!!
cant wait for fri.....haha...



yea,i know..
i was sakai when i saw d comments..
i jumped and shouted yay..
n ching tot i was insane..
coz i went 'cuckoo' twice 2day..
n she say she nvr knew abt tis side of me...
XD

well...
my dear fren,
beware then...
tis IS d real me..
things been diff for d past few months...
i was shut in a box for dat period..
now..im releasing bit by bit..
i know thr'll be more..
but hopefully i'll be able to conduct self-control..
if not..
habis...

XD


ciaozz... ^_^

Procastination!!!! >0<

i hate myself for being so lazy!!!
arrgghhh...

i shld be doing my recording for THE assignment now..
but yet...
im lying around d house doing nth..

i purposely miss d show...
coz i knew i wld hav a quiet aftnoon at home
and dat wld be perfect for me to do my assignment..

but thanks to d lovely weather..
i've been napping tru-out d day till now...
n surprisingly...
i did not go wacko worrying if i don't hav time to complete it..
n guess wat..
i haven't even start preparing for it..

ouchhh..
tis is so bad!!!
i nd someone to whack me...
I NEED TO BUCK UP NOW!!!
> > ~~ < <

Moviee!!!

Going to watch 'Marley n Me' wiv sis tmr..
weeeee.....
cant wait!! >_<

n...
celebrating mum's bday tmr..
yay!!!
hopefully my veggie bake would turn out nicely.. XD

Quotes

I found this from an email..


' To handle yourself, use your head...

To handle others, use your heart... '


I love this phrase a lot..
it means so much to me..

I'm amazed with the results XD

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

Yay!! XD

Got myself a tube(tak tau apa penjodoh bilangan can use,jz simply think of 1) of concealer at last!!!

wanted to buy for a long time since last yr when my cousin urge me to buy it in sg laz yr april..
coz of d currency diff...i din actually buy it at dat time..
so i tell myself,i muz get one when im in kl..
but i alwiz cant find d correct 'kaki' to go to this kind of places to buy,
so..drag until 2day..


2day,i went to MPO wiv Angel,Amy,Karen n Yvoon to watch piano concerto..
b4 lunch..
i actually walked into Guardian and wanted to buy d concealer which cost abt 50++
when i was abt to pay in d cashier,
Amy sudd pulled me back and ask me to go Sasa to buy aft v finished d concert..
so i'm like..
okay,i follow wat d pro says.. XD

so aft d concert,v went Sasa aft teman-ing Yvoon hav her dinner (teman teman sampai v oso went to buy food.. XD)
so ngam,Sasa is having anniversary sales..
so i actually got my concealer is a much cheaper price compared to Guardian..
which is oni RM38.xx(tis is aft 20% discount,but even if no discount,still cheaper!!)


i cant imagine myself buying tis stuff now..
coz laz time i dun really like to put on make up..
yes..i do agree dat i alwiz hav make up on my face laz time whenever i hav dance performances,
but those r d times whr i dont hav my glasses on..

for now,aft i left sch and no longer got involve in tis performance field,
i do not think it's crucial to put on make up when i go out eventhough my cousin hav been nagging abt it..
coz in my opinion,
im wearing specs and make up wouldnt make any diff,
so i decided not to spend to much on tis stuff..

but as time comes..
my mindset has changed..
n thanks to someone's suggestion on treating myself better..
i've decided to make some slight changes..
hopefully...
it wouldnt turn out awfully as i try to change..

Miss you so much

I really wish dat u were here...
whr i can feel the existence of u..
sometimes...
it's jz so hurt to see everyone being so sweet...

hopefully u can come back soon enough..
I've missed u terribly!!

Random Thoughts

I hate people who take things for granted..


yes..i do know..
we've promised,
but dat is only under some sort of circumstances..
things change...
n we need to move on..
thr's nth wrong when we suddenly decided to leave it and want nothing to do with it...
coz d commitment is not crucial fr us but u..

don't ever make wrong assumptions when u dunno d truth..
sometimes people prefer to hide d truth to protect someone..
but somehow..
thr r times dat d victim is being over protected n end up d protectors got hurt...
n thr r times dat d protectors had done so much and ended up they do not knw how to tell d victim off when d time has actually come...


im jz wondering..
how can life be liddat?
wat is d credit for being nice..or shld i say TOO nice to people..
well..
in my opinion...
d credit is getting to learn more on handling problems..
but at d same time...
it actually hurts b4 u got d lesson...

life...
haiz...
tis is wat u call life...