Friday, January 21, 2011

awwwww mahn....
can't wait for Sunday to come!!!
not because i get to dye my hair but...( i'm still excited about this but not that much though =P )
because i'll be attending church!!!wheeeeee~~~
don't be surprise..
ask me if you wanna know why caz it's a long story... '~'

know what? screw the reflections and resolution thingy, ask me if you wanna know...
i'm sick of telling the stories so many times, but i'll still find time to dedicate a post to Girls' Christian Camp that totally changed my perspective of 2010 before the year ends. *winks

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Tell me something that I don't know,will you? 2010 reflections and 2o11 resolutions are missing.
the reason? i still don't feel that 2011 is here already.
and well,i'm actually working on it.

I'm telling myself,be patient.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

You have no idea what i've been through and worse still i'm not SUPPOSE to let you know incase you shut yourself down again.

So now only you can have breakdowns and i'm not allow to be emotionally distracted at all?
I wonder what has gone wrong since then.
It seems like i'm not suppose to know anything anymore.
So this is what you call friends.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I came across this website when i was searching for good souvenirs for my foster family in Japan.

And the results?

Your date of conception was on or about 14 December 1988 which was a Wednesday.

You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Virgo.
Your Life path number is 6.

Your fortune cookie reads:
If you continually give, you will continually have.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447775.5.
The golden number for 1989 is 14.
The epact number for 1989 is 22.
The year 1989 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/6/1989 and ending 1/26/1990.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Snake.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Bear; your plant is Violets.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Hathys, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 6 Elul 5749.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 7 Elul 5749.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is which is
12 baktun 18 katun 16 tun 6 uinal 11 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 4 Safar 1410 (1410-2-4).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 March 1989.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 April 1989.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 8 February 1989.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 May 1989.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 21 May 1989.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 30 September 1989.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 20 April 1989.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 7 February 1989.

As of 11/15/2010 11:03:53 PM EST
You are 21 years old.
You are 254 months old.
You are 1,106 weeks old.
You are 7,740 days old.
You are 185,783 hours old.
You are 11,146,983 minutes old.
You are 668,819,033 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Greg Rusedski (1973)Rosie Perez (1964)Jeff Foxworthy (1958)
Jane Curtin (1947)Swoosie Kurtz (1944)Roger Waters (1943)
Jo Anne Worley (1937)Joseph P. Kennedy (1888)

Top songs of 1989
Another Day In Paradise by Phil CollinsMiss You Much by Janet Jackson
Straight Up by Paula AbdulRight Here Waiting by Richard Marx
Lost In Your Eyes by Debbie GibsonLike a Prayer by Madonna
We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy JoelTwo Hearts by Phil Collins
When I See You Smile by Bad EnglishBlame It On the Rain by Milli Vanilli

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.0293542074364 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Wednesday.
Your lucky number is 5.
Your ruling planet(s) is Mercury.
Your lucky dates are 5th, 14th, 23rd.
Your opposition sign is Pisces.
Your opposition number(s) is 3.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 295 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 22 candles.

Those 22 candles produce 22 BTUs,
or 5,544 calories of heat (that's only 5.5440 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.51 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1989 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1989 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1989 in the US there were 2,404,000 marriages (9.7%) and 1,163,000 divorces (4.7%)
In 1989 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1989 the population of Australia was approximately 16,936,723.
In 1989 there were approximately 250,853 births in Australia.
In 1989 in Australia there were approximately 117,176 marriages and 41,383 divorces.
In 1989 in Australia there were approximately 124,232 deaths.

Your birth flower is ASTER

Your birthstone is Sapphire

The Mystical properties of Sapphire

Though not meant to replace traditional medical treatment, Sapphire is used for clear thinking.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Agate, Moonstone, Lapis Lazuli

Your birth tree is
Weeping Willow, the Melancholy

Beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.

There are 40 days till Christmas 2010!
There are 53 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

try it and have fun.. ^^

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

There comes a point in time when something you've always known existed, hits you.

and it hits you hard, real hard.

Someone asked me that day if I still thought about you. I told her I did. "Every single day." Every single crappy day. You think I asked for this? You think I want this? you've gone on with your life JUST fine. Everything about your life turned out exactly the way you wanted it to be. You got so many things that you've ever dreamed of or never dreamed of getting them . eventhough you've never admitted that in the past.

People try not to talk about you to me because they're afraid of the way I'll react. But I ask them, I probe them to tell me more. and they do. Then I regret asking because the answers turn out to be the opposite of what I wanted. No, actually, I regret asking because talking about you still hurts. It hurts because I used to be the person people asked about you. I don't know what kind of answers I'm looking for when I ask people about you. I thought I did, but evidently, I don't. I just want to know how you're doing. But more than anything in the world, I wish I could share this happiness with you, instead of having to be happy for you on the outside.

I don't feel like I've been replaced, oh no. I just feel like I've been cut off - too soon. Like this whole thing could've been avoided. I knew there would come a day that something like this would happen - us, not talking. But I didn't know it was going to happen... like... well, like that. I didn't know it would affect me this much.. and I didn't know it would affect me this long.

Sometimes, I wish that we were never friends in the first place. Then maybe it wouldn't have been this way. Maybe I didn't have to go through this and bear the pain. but then I think back on all the things we talked about and the stuff we've been through. I'm grateful you were in my life. Eventhough it was only just for awhile. this is the experience that has made me grow and know this world better. thank you for stopping by in my life. i truly appreciate it.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Can i put my system into sleep mode and be ignorant until all this ends?

it's really driving me up the wall..

what's up lately?
everything is in a mess.
n everyone is emo-ing.
what else?
can't we all just suck it up and continue with our lives?

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I've missed it so much.

I wanted to know how did it happen,
but I don't know what can I do to find out or to gain it back.

For now, I'm grateful of what I have.
And I'm treasuring and loving ~~

Sunday, June 13, 2010

how many times do I have to repeat this?

why am I always doing things that I wouldn't be appreciated for doing it and most of the times end up with blames, scoldings and sulks for the things that I didn't do..
is it so hard for you to thank people??
I didn't ask for a pay or what, I just needed a word of appreciation to comfort myself.
do u realize that I took all the trouble to go all the way to the particular venue to get things or do errands for you?
I hate the attitude that was shown to me, as if I'm obliged to do so, and it's my responsibility to do so when I'm just trying to be nice to help you out?
if you are thinking that why do I treat you that way..
well,ask yourself first..I treated you that way because you treated me the way you want people to treat you. so don't blame.
I'm getting tired,so please be nice.

Thursday, May 20, 2010


i just dont understand why are you doing this..
it sounds ironic to me...

Monday, May 10, 2010


i was flipping through a stack of inspirational cards that i believe was given to my mum during Mothers' Day celebration in church yesterday..

n as i flipped to the 2nd card,this verse gave me the comfort and stopped me from reading through.
it says:

Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen you heart;
Wait, I say, On the Lord.
Psalm 27:14

it has been a really tough week for me, and seriously..
being sensitive has no credits at all...
i hate it when i feel something but yet dont know how to ask and just let things rot,
and staying alone feeling really sick about it.

Dear God,teach me to be ignorant and obtuse.