Happiness is not something we find,
it's something we create.

Life is Fragile

Yesterday I watched '102 Minutes That Changed America' with my family..
seriously..it freaks me out n gave me goosebumps..

but y goosebumps?
well~~
goosebumps as in how scary can human be when they r desperate...
it really scares me to imagine how desperate were d pilots until they not oni decided to sacrifice themselves but also d rest of d passengers..

tho i witness the fall of both WTC buildings on tv screen..
but i still feel really shocked..
n sad for those who r innocent but didnt had d choice of survival..
i really pity d firemen who went up to save the citizens yet they oso got kill when d whole building collapse in seconds ..


i had a lot of mixed feelings aft i finish the show..
thr r so many things dat words cant express..

one word to sum up all my confusion aft watching the show:

Speechless

Being nice to others sometimes means being cruel to yourself.

i rili dont knw if i hav made d right choice..
jz coz dat person asked(not beg,ask oni) n whine..
i change my mind..jz to suit dat person..
was i doin d right thing?
now im suffering..
havin a hard time tryin to find another solution,
which i actually dun hav to if i cekal hati on my stand..

is IT still thr?
d answer is NO..
coz i alr starting to hav counter-effect..
then??
wat was pulling me back?
i rili dunno..
now i hate myself for bein me..
n i dislike dat person alr..

uugghhhh...

我们选择欺骗，是因为不想伤害深爱的人， 我们不是故意的，只是没有伤害的勇气，所以才隐藏真正的答案。

After I've seen, felt, sensed and gone through a number of things, incidents, or whatever you wanna name them.
I finally can make a simple conclusion with ONE fact.

Human being is a complicated mechanism.

i think that explains so much
AND
it sums up pretty quite a lot of stuff as well.
XD

Friend

' A true friend will respect who you are,they won't expect you to change to a different person to please them.'

I went across tis phrase when i was reading the blog of one of my junior.
I like the definition of tis phrase a lot!
it makes people think dat they are special in the eyes of the ones dat love them.

not to say true frens wont make u change,
but even if they ask u to change is because they think thr r some flaws dat u can improve in to make ur life better.. ^^

yea..i know...
my dears!!! thank you so much for helping tru-out my life until now..
i may not hav only one fren who 'stick' wiv me fr d day i hav memories till now..
but i do hav frens fr diff stages who gave me help fr diff aspects..
i will heart you all alwiz!!! ^x^

i'm so into quotes lately... XD
dun ask me why..i dunno..
but these kind of lil phrases do lighten my day sometimes.
^_^

Trust

'You can trust nobody but yourself,sometimes not even your family or bestie or mate would be the someone that you could rely on.'

This is the statement that was made TWICE by a fren.

When she mention this to me for d 1st time,
i was kinda shock dat tis actually came out fr her.
coz her condition was so much better than i was at dat time.

she mention dat im kinda naive sometimes..
n i shldnt simply place my trust on anyone,
not even my closest soulmate,which is my sis..
it made me wonder how many times of betrayal she've gone tru to make her say tis...

for d 2nd time,
she actually gave dat as an advice to me...
coz she knew i had trouble with human relationships all d time..
i asked her a question...
wont dat be hard?
u hav to keep all d things to urself?
i tot dat wat's frens are for?
to share ur joy and to lighten ur burden?
she did not gave me a satisfying answer but a quick reply dat could keep me thinking until any trouble occur.
u will come to a point whr u think keeping things to urself is better than sharing d weight.

i was thinking...
shld i be discussing tis? m i qualified to talk abt tis?
coz i know very well dat..
im not suppose to say tis coz im d one dat hav a HUGE mouth dat ppl hates.
for me..i alwiz think dat 'Sharing is Caring'
not to say sharing to the world,but within the bunch..
but for now..
i think 'Keeping Quiet' would be d best advice for me..

maybe i really shld consider abt my problematic personality and attitude issues seriously now..
i do know dat her words has nth to do towards me..
but...well..
i guess tis is d alarm dat the Lord is giving me...

For all my dears,(yes each and everyone of you!!!)

no matter what happens,i'll still place my trust on you.

please dont let me down.

^X^

Dear Lord,My Heavenly Father,
Please guide me,lead me to the correct path.
I pray for Your forgiveness and guidance in life.
Amen.

Quotes

I found this from an email..


' To handle yourself, use your head...

To handle others, use your heart... '


I love this phrase a lot..
it means so much to me..