Useless and hopeless

Everything is a challenge,an obstacle for me..
in fact,
Nothing was and is easy in my eyes...
yet..im taking too many things for granted..

im asking myself,
did i ever look back and learn from all my stupid mistakes..
the answer is NO...

y do i hav such attitude?
i felt so helpless about myself..
yet i hate myself for all these stupid things...

y did this happen?
y m i not bucking up??
y m i so obtuse?
y m i so absurd on all d wonderful things dat i had??

in conclusion,
I'm just nothing but an empty shell.


im so disappointed with myself.